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This or that.. yes its another survey..;)

This or That?

Coke or Pepsi?
Diet coke or regular pepse

Regular pool or heated pool?

depends... hot days=regular..not so hott=heated

Hot tea or ice tea?

today its warm so ill go with iced

Sunflower or daisy?

daisy... dont sunflowers have seeds..lol..

Red rose or pink rose?

either or... but i would love a lily

Salt or pepper?

salt..?

Red or Green Apple?

Oooo.. ummm green

Red or Blue?

Hmmm... blue

Christmas or Thanksgiving?

Thanksgiving

Pink or Green?

Green

Hamburger or Hotdogs?

Hamburger

Music or Movies?

Definelty both

Heaven or hell?

Heaven...!!!

Comedy or horror?

Comedy today.. but i do like horror

aol or aim?

aim

ipod or mp3?

dont matter

Purse or backpack?

Purse

Myspace or bebo?

Myspace

Parision or Sears?

Sears

Paris or France?

Paris

Milky Way or Snickers?

today ill sa milky way but most days snickers

Vanilla or Chocoloate?

Chocolate

Phone or Internet?

Both..; )

Steak or Shrimp?

Shrimp or neither

School or Work?

Both...

My mood: somewhat lonely
My health: not good

Posted by AuThEnTiC at 02:13 on March 17th, 2008 at 2:13AM (updated Mar 17th, 2008)

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Every Thing Changes

If you just walked away

What could I really say?

Would it matter anyway?

Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose

The closet you cannot close

The devil in you i suppose

'Cause the wounds never heal

But everything changes

If I could

Turn back the years

If you could

Learn to forgive me

Then I could learn to feel

Sometimes the things I say

In moments of disarray

Succumbing to the games we play

To make sure that it's real

But everything changes

If I could

Turn back the years

If you could

Learn to forgive me

Then I could learn to feel

When it's just me and you

Who knows what we could do

If we can just make it through

The toughest part of the day

But everything changes

If I could

Turn back the years

If you could

Learn to forgive me

Then I could

Learn how to feel

Then we could

Stay here together

And we could

Conquer the world

If we could

Say that forever

Is more than just a word

If you just walked away

What could I really say?

And would it matter anyway?

It wouldn't change how you feel

My mood: somewhat enthralled
My health: not good

Posted by AuThEnTiC at 05:27 on March 7th, 2008 at 5:27AM

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Epihany...

Your words they make just a whisper

Your face is so unclear

I try to pay attention

And the words just disappear

Cuz it's always raining in my head

Forget all the things i should have said

So i speak to you in riddles

Cuz my words get in my way

I smoke the whole thing to my head

And feel it wash away

Cuz i can't take anymore of this

I wanna come apart

And did myself a little hole

Inside your precious heart

Cuz it's always raining in my head

Forget all the things i should have said

I am nothing more than

A little boy inside

That cries out for intention

That i always try to hide

Cuz i talk to you like children

Though i don't know how i feel

But i know i'll do the right thing

If the right thing is in fear

Cuz its always raining in my head

Forget all the things i should have said

My mood: somewhat enthralled
My health: not good

Posted by AuThEnTiC at 05:14 on March 7th, 2008 at 5:14AM

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I Try

I Try..

Games, changes and fears

When will they go from here

When will they stop

I believe that fate has brought us here

And we should be together,

But we're not

I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you

I'll keep my cool, but I'm feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke

Try to walk away and I stumble

Though I try to hide it, it's clear

My world crumbles when you are not near

I may appear to be free

But I'm just a prisoner of your love

And I may seem all right and smile when you leave

But my smiles are just a front

Just a front, hey

I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you

I'll keep my cool, but I'm feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke

Try to walk away and I stumble

Though I try to hide it, it's clear

My world crumbles when you are not near

Goodbye and I choke

I try to walk away and I stumble

Though I try to hide it, it's clear

My world crumbles when you are not near

Here is my confession

May I be your possession

Boy, I need your touch

Your love kisses and such

With all my might I try

But this I can't deny

Deny

I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you

(but I'm dreaming of you babe)

I'll keep my cool, but I'm feigning

I try to say goodbye and I choke

Try to walk away and I stumble

Though I try to hide, it's clear

My world crumbles when you are not near

(when you are not near aahh)

Goodbye and I choke

I try to walk away and I stumble

Though I try to hide it, it's clear (sick of love)

My world crumbles when you are not near (your love, kisses and such)

My mood: pretty overwhelmed
My health: not good

Posted by AuThEnTiC at 06:59 on February 23rd, 2008 at 6:59AM

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28% Pure..; P

How pure are you? Bold what applies, every one is worth 1% that you subtract from 100%. No explaining anything.

01. Smoked.

02. Drank alcohol.

03. Cried when someone died.

04. Been drunk.

05. Had sex.

06. Been to a concert.

07. Gotten/given a hand job.

08. Gotten/given a blow job.

09. Been verbally/sexually harassed.

10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.

12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.

13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.

14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.

15. Been to prom.

16. Cried at school.

17. Gotten lost in a Wal-Mart or a department store.

18. Went streaking.

19. Given or received a lap dance.

20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.

total so far: 82

21. Had a sleep over with someone of the opposite sex.

22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.

23. Kissed a stranger.

24. Hugged a stranger.

25. Went scuba diving.

26. Driven a car.

27. Gotten an x-ray.

28. Hit by a car.

29. Had a party

30. Done serious drugs.

total all together:74

31. Played strip poker/darts/other game.

32. Got paid to strip for someone.

33. Ran away from home.

34. Broken a bone.

35. Eaten sushi.

36. Bought porn.

37. Watched porn.

38. Made porn.

39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex.

40. Been in love.

so far: 67

41. French kissed.

42. Laughed so hard you cried.

43. Cried yourself to sleep.

44. Laughed yourself to sleep.

45. Stabbed yourself.

46. Shot a gun.

47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day....

48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.

49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.

50. Watched an animal die.

total all together : 59

51. Watched a person die.

52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.

53. Pranked somebody

54. Put somebody in the hospital.

55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.

56. Kissed somebody of the same sex.

57. Dressed punk

58. Dressed Goth

59. Dressed preppy

60. Been to a motocross race.

total all together: 51

61. Avoided somebody

62. Been stalked.

63. Stalked someone.

64. Met a celebrity.

65. Played an instrument.

66. Ridden a horse.

67. Cut yourself.

68. Bungee jumped.

69. Ding dong ditched somebody

70. Been to a wild party.

total all together:45

71. Been caught stealing something.

72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.

73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.

74. Gone out with your friend's crush.

75. Got arrested.

76. Been pregnant.

77. Babysat.

78. Been to another country.

79. Started your house on fire.

80. Had an encounter with a ghost.

total so far: 43

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.

82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.

83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.

84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.

85. Sat on your butt all day.

86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.

87. Had a job

88. Gotten cut from a sports team.

89. Been called a whore.

90. Danced like a whore.

total so far: 35

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.

92. Been in a car accident.

93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.

94. Been told you have beautiful hair.

95. Raped somebody.

96. Danced in the rain.

97. Been rejected.

98. Left a restaurant without paying.

99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.

100. Been raped.

I think i did the math right.. if so than iam only 28%pure....

My mood: pretty pessimistic

Posted by AuThEnTiC at 04:07 on February 17th, 2008 at 4:07AM

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Im LeAvInIg Ep....

From the 4th to i think the 13th.. I will be traveling cross country via road trip and airplanes..; P I leave This morning at 8:10am from SKy Harbor airport I will then be flying to Seattle... bounce round the area for a few celebrate my b-day on wed..... go be my bfs maid of honor on sat... hopefully see Steffanie give birth to my next god baby.. Then to Boise Idaho to see family... then drive more than likely to San Fransisco.. Cause I love that city.. Perhaps to LA next just to drive through..lol... and eat some pizza....then skip my happy ass back to Phoenix....; ) and all of you here at ep..; ) i might check it once or while im away.. but im not sure yet.. SO until then. Ill miss ya and take care of yourselves and eachother..; P

Posted by AuThEnTiC at 00:12 on February 4th, 2008 at 12:12AM

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The definition of LoVe.. through the eyes of innocence..

The True Meaning of Love

A few of these brought a tear to my eye they were so beautiful, so I thought you might enjoy them too. As they say "Out of the mouths of babes ..."

These are the true meanings of "love"!

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think.

When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."

Rebecca - age 8 ( i want that..;)

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth."

Billy - age 4

Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."

Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."

Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."

Terri - age 4

Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."

Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are Like that They look gross when they kiss"

Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen,"

Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend you hate,"

Nikka - age 6

"There are two kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them."

Jenny - age 8 (Pretty smart kid!!)

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."

Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still pals even after they know each other so well."

Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore,"

Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."

Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."

Elaine -age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is more handsome than Robert Redford."

Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."

Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."

Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you."

Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."

Mark - age 6 (hahah...)

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget ."

Jessica - age 8 ( so right!)

An author and lecturer once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a 4 year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman

who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked him what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry."

Now . . . have a nice day!

My mood: pretty hopeful

Posted by AuThEnTiC at 04:52 on January 27th, 2008 at 4:52AM (updated Feb 2nd, 2008)

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People...

make me mad... make me sad... make me question what i have... Is it concrete or my illusion.... Is it long lasting or a breif phase.... I often find myself questioning what is real, and whats imaginitave...I know im angry but why...? I know Im jealous but do i have a reason..? I know im feeling lost but am i really....? Is this the way a sane person thinks...? Am I weird or is this normal..... But then I question whats normal...who is normal...? what makes them that way...? what makes a person weird..? then it moves to love... Does that even exist...? what is it...? will i ever find it..? am i destined to be this way forever...?

My mood: somewhat annoyed

Posted by AuThEnTiC at 01:12 on January 19th, 2008 at 1:12AM

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Oblivion..

Waking up heavy hearted..

Wondering where it all started..

Was it real..? Or just pretend..?

Did I mean what I said...?

Or was it all just in my head..?

Am I real...

Is this an illusion..?

Am I alive or really dead...?

My mood: somewhat frustrated

Posted by AuThEnTiC at 20:02 on January 18th, 2008 at 8:02PM (updated Jan 18th, 2008)

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HAte

I dont care what she said....

I dont care what you did...

None of it matters is in the end...

Yes Im still bitter..

No I dont forgive you...

Yea your an asshole...

Sure you can leave....

Dont bother looking back...

Nothing left here for you to see...

Go fuck yourself...

I hate you... I really do.. I hate your hurtful words I hate how you can control my emotions... I hate the power you hold over me... I hate it when you tell me you love me.. I hate that I believe you, when I know its all a lie...I hate that I run back everytime you make me cry.. I hate that its been over for over a year... I Hate that you did that... I hate the wayI reacted.. I hate that Im sorry... I hate it that your not near... I hate that I dont hate you for everything you did.. I hate it that Im alone and that your there.... BLAH BLAH... goodbye..

Posted by AuThEnTiC at 22:26 on January 17th, 2008 at 10:26PM

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Boredom survey....

*Numbers*
1 Name You Are Called
1:	Pass for privacy
Two Things You have Eaten
1:	cup of noodles (chicken)
2:	munchies (cheese fix)
Three Things You Have Done Today
1:	took a shower
2:	rode the bus
3:	came to work
Four Articles of Clothing You Are Wearing
1:	blue polo..
2:	maroon undershirt
3:	blue silver jeans
4:	white sneakers
Five Objects On Your Desk
1:	stapler
2:	phone
3:	two monitors
4:	keyboard
Five Objects You Hold Dear
1:	my bed... ;)
2:	my cell phone
3:	my sanity...
4:	my loved ones
5:	my fish...
Six Memories You Cherish The Most
1:	preschool/headstart
2:	the innocence of youth
3:	my summer with kacey
4:	my three months in washington
5:	Highschool.... Or all of school
6:	falling in love
Seven Goals
1:	have babies
2:	fall in love (true love)
3:	have a career
4:	get married
5:	be a published author
6:	self accepting
7:	be HAPPY
Eight Friends:	Kacey
1:	Jessica
2:	Beth
3:	Adrian
4:	Charles...; )
5:	Karie...)
6:	Juanita
7:	Steffanie
8:	Adrian
Nine Places You've Been:	Idaho
1:	Washington
2:	Oregon
3:	Montana
4:	Arizona
5:	California
6:	Colorado
7:	Utah
8:	Nevada
9:	New Mexico
Ten People Who Inspire You:
1:	My sister
2:	Kacey
3:	my grandparents
4:	Shakespeare
5:	you
6:	Friends
7:	Family
8:	Mary Bell
9:	myself
10:	GOD....

*Numbers*
1 Name You Are Called
1:	Pass for privacy
Two Things You have Eaten
1:	cup of noodles (chicken)
2:	munchies (cheese fix)
Three Things You Have Done Today
1:	took a shower
2:	rode the bus
3:	came to work
Four Articles of Clothing You Are Wearing
1:	blue polo..
2:	maroon undershirt
3:	blue silver jeans
4:	white sneakers
Five Objects On Your Desk
1:	stapler
2:	phone
3:	two monitors
4:	keyboard
Five Objects You Hold Dear
1:	my bed... ;)
2:	my cell phone
3:	my sanity...
4:	my loved ones
5:	my fish...
Six Memories You Cherish The Most
1:	preschool/headstart
2:	the innocence of youth
3:	my summer with kacey
4:	my three months in washington
5:	Highschool.... Or all of school
6:	falling in love
Seven Goals
1:	have babies
2:	fall in love (true love)
3:	have a career
4:	get married
5:	be a published author
6:	self accepting
7:	be HAPPY
Eight Friends:	Kacey
1:	Jessica
2:	Beth
3:	Adrian
4:	Charles...; )
5:	Karie...)
6:	Juanita
7:	Steffanie
8:	Adrian
Nine Places You've Been:	Idaho
1:	Washington
2:	Oregon
3:	Montana
4:	Arizona
5:	California
6:	Colorado
7:	Utah
8:	Nevada
9:	New Mexico
Ten People Who Inspire You:
1:	My sister
2:	Kacey
3:	my grandparents
4:	Shakespeare
5:	you
6:	Friends
7:	Family
8:	Mary Bell
9:	myself
10:	GOD....

My mood: very sleepy

Posted by AuThEnTiC at 02:55 on January 4th, 2008 at 2:55AM (updated Jan 4th, 2008)

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SeX....Q & A....

.Is there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with?

Yea...; )

2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?

in the morning, afternoon, night and evertime inbetween.. ;)

3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?

The left..

4. Pork, beef, or chicken?

I would say chicken..

5. Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke?

I sure have... theres even been times when i didnt make it that long...lol....

6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?

Nope...sure havent...This isnt for sale...; )

7. Shower or bath?

BOTH

8. Do you pee in the shower?

Ummm... I have before but i normally try to go before i get in the shower...lol....

9. Mexican or Chinese?

hard question... but in general authentic mexican

10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?

A bit of both but more aggressive... Is that possible..?

11. Do you love someone on your friends list?

Love is such a strong word...

12. Do you know all the people on your friends list?

I know none of them in person but a few i feel like i know...

13. Love or money?

LOVE for sure cause we can always make money together..; )

14. Credit cards or cash?

Cash... Cause then i dont have to pay it back or have an interest rate...

15. Has there ever been anyone in your family you wish wasn't?

At times yes... but if they werent who they are i wouldnt be who iam soo... thats abit difficult to answer

16. Would you rather go camping or to a 5 star hotel?

I cant choose I love camping but ive never stayed in a five star hotel... SO.. idk both...; )

17. What is the weirdest place you have had sex?

Umm the first ones that come to mind are either in the school girls bathroom or on top of a dumpster(yea I know)

18. Would you shave your entire body (including your head) for money?

Yea.. and it wouldnt even have to be for money if there was a good cause behind it i would shave it all...

19. Have you ever been to a strip club?

yep on my 18th b-day and then again a couple times since i been in az

20. Ever been to a bar?

sure have

21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club?

no... im not known for being obnoxious

22. Ever been so drunk you had to be carried out of somewhere?

Yea,, there has been a few times...; )

23. Top, bottom or behind?

TOP............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

24. Favorite drink?

latelty ive been on a vitamin water kick... which is funny because i used to hate them...lol....

25. Had sex in a movie theater?

Nope...not yet... but now i want to...; )

26. Had sex in a bathroom?

yea...

27. Have you ever had sex at work?

ummmm no.... i dont really mix business with pleasure unless its really worth it...

you ever been in an "adult" store?

yeah like last week;)

Bought something from an adult store?

Yep....... wouldnt you like to know what...; )

30. Have you been caught having sex?

Yea... my dad caught me once...lol...in the bathroom of all places and friends have walked in on me before...;)

31. Does anyone have naughty pics of u?

NO... Im too shy for that...but maybe one day someone will break me of that...

32. Have you ever had sex with someone and called them the wrong name?

Yea I have and then tried to cover it up... But theyve never said anything bout it... So idk...

33. Who do you think has the guts to repost this?

Idk... I guess we will have to wait and see..; )

My mood: somewhat okay

Posted by AuThEnTiC at 00:18 on December 23rd, 2007 at 12:18AM

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More on Personality....

Thanks Brazi... im addicted....;)

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	40%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Conflict seeking	\|\|	10%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	44%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Vanity	\|\|	10%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Indie	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	48%

Stability results were medium which suggests you are moderately relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:

messy, disorganized, not rule conscious, rebellious, rash, weird, ambivalent about chaos, likes bizarre things, anti-authority, not good at saving money, not a perfectionist, leaves many things unfinished, low self control, strange, desires more attention, romantic daydreamer, abstract, impractical, unproductive, leisurely, likes the unknown

Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
personality test by similarminds.com My mood: a bit bummed

Posted by AuThEnTiC at 04:06 on December 22nd, 2007 at 4:06AM (updated Dec 22nd, 2007)

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